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Incredibly edible

garden veggies in floral bowl

“I’ve made lunch.” I called out to husband who had busied himself poking about in his tool shed. He didn’t answer me, not being rude but rather not hearing as he is going somewhat deaf like me. I went out on the patio to get in closer proximity to his hearing range and called out the same message.

He turned to me, hearing this time and said, “Fantastic! What are we having?”

“Everything incredibly edible!” I answered him.

He looked at me puzzled and I laughed then said, “I came out and picked away at the garden. We’re having a salad from my small harvest of lettuce, wild onions, green onions, tomatoes, red basil, green basil, rosemary and a bit of lavender!”

Barry smiled and said, “That sounds very original to me! I’ve never heard of putting lavender in a salad.”

“I sprinkled a few leaves on my last salad to try it. I used very little because it can be very strong tasting. It made my salad pop!” I said.

Barry put down a drill he had in his hand and said, “Well let’s go make my salad pop!”

Nothing surpasses a salad hand picked from the garden.

© Zora Zebic 2016

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A sad story

abandoned ladies loafers with cigarette butts

When she put on her shoes that day, I suppose she was expecting a bit of flattery. She didn’t get that from the man she has taken on as her life partner. He is a thief and drug addict and she found it easier to join him in all his activities than to insist he become a real man. She couldn’t imagine life without him; it was a choice of losing him or becoming a loser.

It is so very sad she made this choice. If you could see her you would wonder at her love for him. He is not an ugly man, but there is little about him that is attractive. He is tough, tattooed in every imaginable part of his body. Not that tattoos are unattractive, but the designs he has had etched to cover him are meant to instil fear. She is beautiful. She can turn the head of most men and yet she does not notice any of them now. It is sad.

She stole a young girl’s bike and the girl came in to tell me. The girl was crying and she looked a mess compared to what I’d seen a few minutes before. She told me the woman had hit her. I rewound the video and watched the entire incident. In my opinion, enough for the police to charge the woman with both theft and assault.

The girl called the police, who came and refused to look at the video. Instead, they told the girl they would get her bike back. They shocked me when they told her the woman was related to a fellow cop and things would get worse for her if she charged the woman!

The young girl was terrified. She asked me what the cops had meant when they said that to her. “Did they mean they would make things worse for me, or did they just mean the woman a cop is related to would make things worse for me?” I sighed deeply and answered her, “I don’t know. I do know that a lawyer would consider their statement to be intimidation.”

She looked at me with a puzzled expression, and I thought she was going to faint from the shivering which had taken over her since the start of the theft and assault. “Either way it is bad for me. I’m best to do nothing.” I felt sad for her and I gave her all the support I could offer at that point, a motherly hug.

The girl let me take photos of her injuries, in case she changed her mind. I told her the video evidence would not remain in the DVR memory past 5 days. She would have to make her decision soon. That was more than a week ago and I haven’t heard from her. I can only pray things did not get worse for her.

I have the photos of her injuries that I cannot share. I can share the photo of the shoes abandoned by the abusive thief. A sad story with no ending, yet.

© Zora Zebic 2016

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Eating what is good for you

cut ripe avocado with seed

On a Facebook ad I read, with incredulity, the pit of the avocado is the most nutritious part. Hum, I thought, I’ve been tossing that out with the skin for years. My cautious mind warned me to be careful, so being a good girl I heeded the warning and clicked to open a new web page and Googled “Is it safe to eat the avocado pit?” This search led to a wealth of controversy, most with a shared wisdom; we should not eat the avocado pit until sufficient research proves or disproves this theory.

I think I’ll wait and enjoy the pulp of my avocado. My favourite way to consume this fruit is to cut it in half, remove the seed and dig my spoon into it’s green goodness. If I make dip for chips, I always buy an extra avocado to eat during the preparation of the dip!

My morning research prompted me to then inquire of Google, “Which are the worst vegetables to eat?” Frankly I am tired of the ads enticing me to click page after page on their heavily advertised web sites to finally reach the end of the list. I am also unhappy with the many sites that want me to pay for this list. Really?

The following is gleaned from many web sites, most who have repeated the knowledge that these veggies are near to bursting with Genetically Modified Organisms (GMO’s), pesticides, synthetic fertilizers, sewage sludge, and ionizing radiation. I’ve listed probable issues as BADNESS:

  1. potato: alkaloids, BADNESS – nerves, muscles, joints and digestive system, liver damage
  2. corn: most seriously GMO modified veggie, BADNESS – common food allergen, fed to cows to marble the meat, have I marbled my body with all the corn I’ve eaten?
  3. bell peppers: solanine, BADNESS – disrupts nerve function, twitching, convulsing, trembling, inflammation, heart disease, cancer, diabetes, joints, rheumatoid arthritis, osteoarthritis
  4. eggplant: solanine and oxalates, BADNESS – joint damage, kidney stones, gallbladder issues
  5. spinach: oxalates and purines BADNESS – gout, kidney stones, kidney issues
  6. cherry tomato: pesticides, BADNESS – inflames joints, arthritis
  7. cucumber: pesticides, BADNESS – unpeeled toxic skin covered with synthetic wax made from chemicals, hormone disruption,
  8. celery: pesticides, BADNESS – hormone disruption
  9. kale: organophosphate insecticides, BADNESS – nervous system toxicity, avoid organic if you have an unhealthy thyroid
  10. squash: pesticides, BADNESS – hormone disruption, kidney stone and kidney problems – don’t plant seeds that are not organic, the bees will eat from the flowers, please save the bees

The general consensus is to avoid purchasing any veggies that are not organic. I’m up for that! Honestly, I love all of the veggies on this list. What would my salad look like without them? I also require a great variety of veggies to make meals interesting.

I recall with fondness how my seemingly ritualistic consumption of food drove the nuns to hear hysteria at each meal. I separated every morsel of food, ensuring the meat was not touching the mashed potatoes or the veggies. The one exception was my habit to pile peas onto the little mountain of smashed spuds to create a pretty speckled pile of yumminess!

I didn’t have a phobia of the food touching each other, but rather that I consumed the foods I found distasteful first and saved my favourites for last. I felt bad to see the other children punished, their fate to remain seated at the table until the last bite was swallowed. Sitting down to eat and hungry I found it was easier to gobble down the stuff I disliked and then I could slowly savour the remaining goodness of each meal.

I was a weird kid, but a very smart kid. I passed this on to my son and we played other games to make food more interesting and palatable. One favourite game was, “who can eat the most baby cabbages?” They are still not called brussels sprout in my house 🙂

© Zora Zebic 2016

 

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Dehydration of the spirit, mind and body

coconut water

I dip my toes into psychological h2o, while sipping on coconut water. I think I should write about natural ways to rehydrate the body to suddenly realize today’s blog is a confessional. A confessional on dehydration of the spirit, mind and body.

After a long absence from my blog, not intentionally self-imposed, I find a precious gift which I had not allotted to myself for some time; time. I take a deep breath and the blessing of spiritually rehydrating joy encompasses me. As I bask in this space I have allotted to me, me, me my spirit soars to heights long forgotten. It is almost dizzying to be blanketed with the self-gratifaction attained only by raising of the spirit!

I reflect on my instructions to volunteers at my homeless shelter during the past 17 years: “Don’t overdo it. Take time to care for yourself. If you overdo it and burn out, you can’t take care of others.” How easily we can instruct others while failing to follow our own advice!

I now recognize how I became tangled in the webs of the needs of others, to the point of causing myself harm spiritually, mentally and physically. I’m spent and I now comprehend how it  was only moments until I would have been forced to either turn down the road of indifference to others or that of a complete nervous breakdown.

These roads are a reality, unless I temporarily slam the door shut on the needy, needy, needy. I have needs and I must now concentrate on my own needs of rest to reclaim spiritual, mental and physical healing. I need this time and I’m taking it.

I do not feel even the tiniest pang of guilt. I cannot continue to remain emotionally overloaded. I cannot continue to snack away at foods, unable to find time to sit down to eat a nutritional meal. I cannot continue to allow my spiritual needs to be cast aside.

I cast away from me the depression that had set in, I denounce those who attempt to bury me in the blame of their own guilts that caused their own issues, I reject any further actions of others to prevent me from doing service to others as instructed by Jesus Christ. I reclaim me.

© Zora Zebic 2016

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Fiction? page 3

gaggle of geese in lake

Looking out the window of the floating restaurant at a small gaggle of geese swimming and feeding, she was startled by his noiseless approach. She wondered why rich people were so weird, needing silent waiters? Where she’d come from it wasn’t very wise to allow for others to sneak up on you. Living on the streets, a teenage castaway misfit, had been rough and toughened her. Still, it was irritating this young man, simply doing his job, had so easily unnerved her.

Forcing herself to smile, expecting him to offer her a desert menu, she noticed a martini with an olive garnish on his serving tray. In a soft voice he said, “Excuse me miss, that gentleman has sent this to you.” She looked in the direction he indicated and felt the blood in her veins turn icy cold. Trying hard to suppress a shiver, she stammered, “That man is no gentleman and I won’t trust a drink from him.” The waiter gave her a startled look and said, “The drink is safe miss. I watched the bartender pour it.” She shook her head and through clenched teeth said, “He is more than capable of paying off a bartender to do his dirty work.” She could not stop herself from shooting the man on the other side of the restaurant her sternest glare saying, “If looks could kill…”

The man who had sent the drink stood suddenly, the chair flipping over behind him. His face reddened as he snarled loudly, “Bitch.” Other patrons in the restaurant began to murmur excitedly. It wasn’t every day they witnessed such a rich and well known artist lose it in a public. He stormed over to the retreating server and took the martini glass from his tray. In his true character, previously known only to her and a few unfortunate others, he threw the drink in her direction and snarled, “You could have had me. Instead you chose that loser. Look at him with a younger girl. He didn’t need you, and now you have nothing and nobody.”

The bitterness and rage of his words threw the patrons in the restaurant into frenzied chatter. Cell phones were capturing the scene in pictures and videos. She knew he’d never be able to purchase them all to keep the scene out of the media. She could see a panicked look on his face betray he’d became aware of his folly. Relieved, she knew his fan club would finally see the monster. For so many years he had painted himself as kindly and wise, the words in the songs he’d published were simply part of his false image and it had pained her to hear him on the radio. Each time she’d switched the stations to avoid the horrific memories his voice would induce.

Suddenly, and beyond her immediate comprehension, she felt as though a wave of peace and protection was pouring over her. In this new comfort zone she turned to look in the direction the monster was pointing to and saw a man with a younger girl, a girl late teens or early twenties. The restaurant became as silent as an empty church as she started to speak. She turned to the monster and said, in a voice filled with compassionate resonance, “He wanted children and I couldn’t give him any. He’s happy and that is all that ever mattered to me.”

She sat back down in her chair, suddenly desiring to see the desert menu. She sipped from her glass of iced tea and let her mind wander to wonderful times. Times when he’d been her one and only true love. Times he’d loved her with equal passion and tenderness. Times when sex was pure, joyful and simply another way of expressing the depth of their love for each other. The monster had not been able to steal away her memories. His torture had not been strong enough to break her. Through it all she’d clung to the memories of true love and the strength of those memories kept her alive.

Looking up in hopes of locating her waiter she noticed all eyes looking at something else capturing their attention. Curious she turned to see her love had slumped to the floor, tears flowing from his downcast eyes. She stood and walked to him, to then kneel down while gently consoling, “If you’re going to puddle, I won’t let you do it alone.” His young companion, still sitting in her chair, her hand on his shoulder simultaneously said, “Dad do you know this woman?”

He raised his head in response to the two voices and looking into the eyes of his long lost love answered her, “Yes my child, she is my true love.” To her he said, “You did that for me? All this time I’ve thought you fell in love with someone else.” She looked from him to his daughter and said, “You needed children to complete your life.” The young girl looked at her, an impish smile playing at the corners of her mouth and said, “I think maybe everything is perfect now.”

She didn’t understand the girls words until he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her into an embrace that caused her to helplessly sway, overcome by his touch of love. He said, “Her mother and I never loved one another, we are great friends. She knew I could never love any other woman after you. I wanted children and she gave them to me. She’s a good woman and a great mom. Now she’s gone to find her own true love. We’d come here to chat about how to deal with the fallout, the media and all.” She smiled and said, “True love is always a good story to tell.”

As they both rose the patrons and staff of the restaurant bust into wild applause. Cheers of congratulations rose. Many faces were mopping away happy tears they’d helplessly cried. One onlooker silently slinked away from the crowd, spotting his retreat she knew he’d not finished with her. He’d be back, some how, some way, having in his arsenal a newly devised weapon in hopes to further torture her. She didn’t care, she was safe now and her true love, now knowing the truth would protect her from the monster.

© Zora Zebic 2016